#44: always a fuss and fight

She lives.

This weird AI art bot called Midjourney made the outback witch house pictured below. Fiddling with it was one of the myriad dumb things I did while losing my mind on the couch this past week. And hey, here’s a pro-tip for you: Don’t get covid! It sucks!!

Anyway: as plugged on my show, I sure would love it if you considered donating to my 2022 Pan-Mass Challenge ride. The PMC is the single biggest charity event in the world and it has raised over $800 MILLION for cancer treatment and research. It’s an event that means a hell of a lot to me. I ride in memory of friends & family lost, and since I rode for the first time in 2018, it has been tremendously beneficial to my own mental health. As of the time I’m writing this, I have raised almost $12,000 over the course of my three rides. Here’s where you can donate. As they used to say at the community theater I frequented as a kid, no amount is too small, and no amount could possibly ever be too large.

Catholic ActionI’m No Artist
Melted MirrorOpen Wire
PromiselandTake Down the House
ErasureFallen Angel (Georgia Remix)
Working Men’s ClubPloys
Nite FieldsVoyeur
Sacred SkinFever
Mind Over MidiEyes Closed
UnderworldJuanita 2022
De LuxWhen Your Life Feels Like A Lie
Vision VideoIn My Side
A Flock of Seagulls(It’s Not Me) Talking
Soft CellSex Dwarf
The Human LeagueThe Black Hit of Space
Nation of LanguageGouge Away
Mind Over MidiCircadian Clock
Oingo BoingoDead Man’s Party
Cold ShowersSliver
Wings of DesireChoose A Life
Hello MeteorThe Lake Green Project
Massive AttackMan Next Door
Clan of XymoxLouise
Joy DivisionA Means to an End
Mind Over MidiDelta Sleep
Depeche ModeRoute 66

outback witch house s01e12: on days like this, at times like these

Tonight was all over the place, but you loved it.

I did not know that “apricity” is the warmness of sun in winter, but I am very glad to know it. I felt like today had those vibes.

Given the kind of week(s) it’s been, I feel like I should have more to say, but I’ve said it elsewhere, and right now I’m just getting down with this stroopwafel, if we’re being fully honest.


(photo cred – me; my shadow)

Playlist (also available here on Spotify):
Black Moth Super Rainbow – Forever Heavy
Omri Smadar/Siam – In the Realm Of
Moonton – Max Bleep (Maruwa Remix)
Omar S/John FM – In My City
Moscoman (feat. WOOZE) – Eyes Wide Strut
Jex Opolis – I’ll Give You Everything
Munir – Aquarius (BED)
Death Bells – Heavenly Bodies
A Projection – Darwin’s Eden
Kontravoid – Too Deep
The Foreign Resort – Dead End Roads
Sisters of Mercy – This Corrosion
Pie Are Squared – Flügezüge (BED)
Kairon; IRSE! – Valorians
Mute Swan – Sedative Sun
BODEGA – How Did This Happen?!
Tobacco – Honey of the Trick
Acid Horse – No Name No Slogan
Pie Are Squared – Apricity (BED)
Generationals – Bobby Beale
Ladytron – Blue Jeans 2.0
Cabaret Voltaire – Don’t Argue
Charlie – Spacer Woman
Pye Corner Audio – Exhumed (BED)
Interpol – NYC


Outback Witch House S01E09: I’m a goth in the sun

Hi. I pulled inspiration from all over the place this week, and I think the central pillars of whatever came together here were driven by the luscious novel I just finished, Plain Bad Heroines by Emily M. Danforth. I’m way too tired to do it justice in any kind of review right now, but it’s definitely worth picking up if you haven’t yet.

It’s slowly but surely beginning to feel a little less hopeless ’round these parts, what with the weather changing, the days growing, and the vaccines beginning to be obtainable by… literally anyone I know. But some of us have been burned a bit too often to lean into whatever optimism the usual spring un-doldrums might produce, so we might find ourselves feeling like the songs on this playlist. Idk. That is at least how I feel, at the precipice of something maybe good but also maybe another trip and fall down the metaphoric mountain.

Molly Nilsson sings this in the song that gave us our episode title of the evening: “And you can sleep through the summer days /
I know you think I’m morbid when I say / I hope you die by my side / The two of us at the exact same time.” I’m thinking about the knowledge that comes in the warmth of those summer days – you have them and you love them and your appreciation makes them end faster than any much shorter day in the winter. The law of paradoxical intent. It’s not that dark, it’s just an observation. This show is an observation of how it feels. Not just this week, but pretty much all weeks, I think.

That’s what we’re going for, at least.


(Photo credit: the usj)

Playlist (also on Spotify here):
King Buffalo – Eta Carinae
The Faint – ESP
The Units – High Pressure Days (Rory Phillips Mix)
The Rapture – Whoo! Alright – Yeah… Uh-Huh.
!!! – Shit Scheisse Merde Pt. 1 (Instrumental) – BED
She Past Away – Soluk
The Sisters of Mercy – Floorshow
Schonwald – Inner Sin
Molly Nilsson – I Hope You Die
Cofaxx – Night Mode, Pt. 1 (BED)
Lauer & Fabrizio Mammarella – Atlalenanti
Syzygy – (I’ll Just Be) Unfulfilled
Black Spuma – Black Spuma
Borusiade – Jeopardy
Bot1500 – Seabird Pt. 1 (BED)
Lucy Dacus – In the Air Tonight
Pye Corner Audio – Perfect Secrecy Forever
Void Vision – The Source
Geneva Jacuzzi/Patriarchy – I Don’t Want To Die (Geneva Jacuzzi Remix)
Tremor – Viajante
Cofaxx – Night Mode, Pt. 2 (BED)
Tones On Tail – Performance
The Neon Judgment – Don’t Wish Me Luck
Xeno & Oaklander – Sheen
Andre Obin – The Arsonist
Bot1500 – Seabird, Pt. 2 (BED)
Drab Majesty – The Foyer


Outback Witch House s01e04: Revolutions around the sun (when the road gets too tough)

I had a birthday around the time of this show, and I’m a little late posting this because I had to borrow Chris’s computer to do it; we went away for the weekend and my new laptop hadn’t yet arrived, and the old one just needs too much life support for us to have brought it.

I’m not sure that I really set out to do anything birthday-special with this episode, but I did play a lot of songs that I just really, really like, including the Sisters’ “Under the Gun,” which is brilliant and often slips under people’s radars with that band.

The last track was inspired by S05E09 of the show Six Feet Under, which I had seen a day before this broadcast. No spoilers here, but it’s used in a cataclysmic dream sequence that haunted me for days after, even though I’d already seen the whole show over ten years ago.

I pulled the Queen of Wands reversed for this one. She’s got life blooming all over. Here in the tundra, it looks really nice.


(Photo cred: Internet K-Hole)

Playlist (also on Spotify here):
Secret Shame – Creature
Tomorrow Syndicate – Captain, I am Fading
Slow Riot – Trophy Wife
Cold Showers – Dismiss
The Foreign Resort – Obsessing
Com Truise – False Ascendancy (BED)
Man of Moon – Skin
Sara Stuttgart – Surrender
The Wake – Big Empty
Susannah Stark – Dear Beloved Friend
The Sisters of Mercy – Under the Gun
FRKSE – Farishtagi (BED)
Front Line Assembly – Bio-Mechanic
VR SEX – Surrender
Laibach – God is God
SUPERNOVA 1006 – We Can Fade Away
Working Men’s Club – Valleys
Legowelt – Revenge of the Nerds (BED)
CCFX – Venetian Screens
Icky Blossoms – Cycle
Automatic – Calling It
Skinny Puppy – Glass Houses
Four Tet – Two Thousand and Seventeen (BED)
David Bowie – Moonage Daydream
Wire – Three Girl Rhumba
CAN – Moonshake
Blancmange – Living on the Ceiling
The English Beat – Mirror in the Bathroom
Com Truise – I Dream [for you] (BED)
Shuggie Otis – Strawberry Letter 23


Outback Witch House S01E03: Words are just words that you’ll soon forget

What’s there to say about this week’s show, other than that it came together at the last second? I was having a hard time compartmentalizing my life this week, still am honestly. As I said on the show, things coalesced around Econoline Crush’s “Devil You Know;” as I didn’t mention, the other cornerstone here was Laurel Halo’s “Light + Space.” I wanted to traverse the spaces I hear between those two points.

I was thinking about the amount of text I’ve written in emails in my life and how they’re the classic case of words you’ll soon forget. It would disturb me to know the word/page count. I was also thinking about some of my recurring dreams of late. One is the classic “have to go back to high school to finish some random class” dream. I also dream of: 1) Austin, Texas; 2) Roads and maps and walls; 3) Getting lost on public transit in places I don’t know yet; 4) Missing flights.

Just pulled a Tarot card at random and it’s The Hermit, reversed. Policy, disguise, unreasoned caution, concealment.


(Photo cred: Internet K-Hole)

Playlist (also on Spotify here):
Stereolab – Dimension M2
Naibu – Just Like You (Fracture’s Austrophonica Mix)
Boy Harsher – Send Me a Vision
ACTORS – P T L (Post Traumatic Love)
Legowelt – Elements of Houz Music (BED)
The Soft Moon – Wasting
Depeche Mode – Mercy in You
SUPERNOVA 1006 – Precious
The Sisters of Mercy – Vision Thing
Boards of Canada – Peacock Tail (BED)
Foie Gras – Sisyphus
Tempers – Hell Hotline
Perfume Genius – Your Body Changes Everything (Boy Harsher Remix)
Alessandro Cortini – LET GO (BED)
Nine Inch Nails – The Wretched
Econoline Crush – Devil You Know
The Jesus & Mary Chain – Snakedriver
The Faint – Damage Control
Thoughts Detecting Machines – Offline
Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith – Stratus (BED)
Them Are Us Too – Eudaemonia
Bollywood Apologetics – Black Wing
Forest Swords – If Your Girl
Peter Gabriel – Lay Your Hands On Me
Sarah Davachi – Laurus I (BED)
Laurel Halo – Light + Space (from an album called Quarantine, which I completely failed to mention)


Outback Witch House S01E01: Post-Traumatic Love

Hey, folks. I’ve been doing a “pirate radio” show (i.e., using some janky streaming service to broadcast online out of my house) on Friday nights from 9-11 PM EST. I’m going to start posting playlists and past shows here, starting with today’s programme. I’ve been doing this for a month or two now, but this is the first officially recorded instance, so we’ll go with calling it S01E01. “Post-Traumatic Love” is a song by the band ACTORS that didn’t appear tonight, but this week it’s a phrase that resonates. I hope today’s OWH helps you recuperate and relax just a bit on this dead-of-winter weekend.


(Photo credit: Internet K-Hole)

Playlist (also on Spotify here):
Madvillain/Madlib/MF DOOM – Rhinestone Cowboy
Mount Kimbie – DELTA (WXAXRXP Session)
TOBACCO – Motherfuckers 64
Legowelt – Axumisia V S612
Khruangbin – Maria Tambien (BED)
Warm Drag – Cave Crawl
Magic Wands – Illuminate
Velvet Condom – Collapse in Slow Motion
The Kentucky Vampires – Our Love Has No Goodbyes
Rosetta Stone – Smoke & Mirrors
Skeleton Hands – Ravage
Loscil – Lines (BED)
White Town – Your Woman
Massive Attack – Mezzanine
Underworld – Juanita: Kiteless: To Dream of Love
Animal Collective – What Would I Want? Sky
STRFKR – Anxiety (BED)
Billy Idol – Eyes Without a Face
Slowdive – Souvlaki Space Station
Oneohtrix Point Never – Chrome Country
The Cure – La Ment
Paul Haslinger – August 2-22
Them Are Us Too – False Moon